Life Satisfaction: High

A day really can make a lot of difference. I, along with 99.9% of my acquaintance, have been bluesy lately. I've attempted to post about various topics and ideas and have really just been too emotionally exhausted to be interesting.

I've been worried that my job performance has, well, sucked. I was late to work 4 out of 5 days. Anywhere from 15 minutes to a couple of hours. Seriously. Since I just started and my coworkers don't really know me, of course I am imagining what they must think of me:

"Wow. In the interview she was so energetic."

"I wonder if she'll ever contribute anything meaningful or if she'll surf the web and sigh all day...every day."

"I wonder if she'll ever comb her hair or wear makeup again. She looked pretty decent in the interview..."

"Is she schizophrenic?"

"Why, again, exactly, did we hire this chick?"

Then I realize that after they get to know me they'll still ask these questions.

This morning I walked into my boss' office. "Uh...can I come in at 9:00 instead of 8:30?" "Sure. Start on Monday if you want." "I'm sorry I've been erratic this week." "I haven't noticed. You're doing a great job." I worked with THE Big Cheese of the Firm for 10 minutes, and he says, "I've been hearing great things about you." We proceed to laugh and I notice that the words coming out of my mouth are not only coherent but mildly intelligent and humorous as well. Bonus. One of my coworkers says to me, "Wow, if I would have known you when I had my own training company, we'd still be in business."

I'm starting to wonder if I have a Good Twin who has been kicking ass in my stead, while I surf the web and sigh all day. If so, I love her.

My personal life is good too. I am happy. (Wow.) You know, having sympatico people in your sphere is important. I feel like I went away to another planet for ten years and just got home again. It's nice to be awake, and aware of the abundance in my life.